When the smallest thing bother me I can’t tell him. I’m scared he’ll get fed up and dump me , I love him so much so much and I want to spend the rest of my life with him and we plan too. And he’s moving so soon I dont want to do anything that will make him think less of me or that makes him think he’s a bad guy cause his not it just I’m paranoid ever since he hurt me with all that bullshit. I’m sick to my stomach with feeling shitty. He makes me SO HAPPY, but something’s bother me like how I’m just kassie on his phone ? Its not big but I’m his girlfriend of 10 months dont I deserve a cute pet name :( I’m too much sometimes and I know but that’s just cause I’m scared to lose someone that means the world to me. I think another girl can easy take him away from me and once again I’ll be heart broken, it’s not that I don’t trust him, cause I really do. I’m just really insecure about everything about me. I’m scared when he moves away he will find someone better or go back to her, he says no and my heart believes him but Its like my head wont let me be happy. :( fml how to get rid of such a disgusting feeling? I can’t help what I think even if I know I’m over reacting it’s like my brain goes on about how worthless I am and there’s no one I can be happy for this long with out a price. I think it’s all my past Fucked me over big time and I’m paying for it now I hope I don’t fuck up. If anything were to happen to us I’d go back to cutting so fast it might kill me, I’m whipped, I’m deep in love, and I’m crazy for him, so why can’t my thoughts fuck off.